I don’t want
to regret all the decision that I made. I’ve
always believe that good or bad, those decisions were made because it’s what the
universe says. The reason why I went
with the flow when D. says we’re moving to a shared apartment was that I felt
that at that time, it was the right time to move. I left the studio flat near Saudi Fisheries
in Subeka because I got sick there. Part
of me believed that it had something to do with the flat where I was
staying. That’s the reason why till
today, I never regretted moving out from that flat.
I stayed
with D. for almost two years in the Prince Abdullah apartment that we
shared. Although I had to deal with Ds
cats, I never complained about it. Since
I walk daily to the office, it’s also nearer, like it’ll take me 40 – 45 minutes
from the apartment to our Prince Abdullah flat.
We had an alright set up there and so far so good. I would love for it to remain that way but
then, Ds decided to bring his Saudi friend to our shared apartment and that
changed everything.
For several
days during the month of April, I’ve noticed and was alarmed by the constant
visitations. In the Kingdom of the Sands,
anything could happen. I was tensed every
time my flat mate had visitation that eventually I decided to move out. I am not a kill joy or anything but I had to
think of my own safety. In the Kingdom
of the Sands, these kinds of stuff are not tolerated and if you’re lucky, you’ll
spend your glory days in the Saudi jail.
I wouldn’t have minded if his visitors are kabayans.
When I had
the chance to talk to my manager, he says that I should move out right
away. He says that I already have a capability
to pay for a decent apartment. He says
that if something happens to me there, he could not defend me. I will also forfeit my ‘End of Service
Benefits’ if in case, our house is raided.
I wouldn’t have minded if I were doing naughty things too but I am not
like that. I can still be rational that I
would never do such things.
I am free
now, free from the danger that D has subjected me. I don’t want to condemn him
but I was uneasy with what he did. My
anger has subsided now but it’ll take some time before I can speak to him
again. It was not easy being tensed all
time so I suffered in silence.
I have a
good feeling with my new flat. I want to
keep the energy positive.