04 May 2013

Krung Krung Moments


Last Tuesday, 16 April 2013, at 8:05 PM I wrote this email to my boss:

Dear Boss,

For the past few months I haven't been feeling so well.  I think I'm stressed and my body can feel it.  I don't think I can anymore handle the demands of my current work.  I'm afraid that if I continue to do this I'm going to have a relapse of the disease that I had 2 years ago.  I'm not young anymore and I can't cope up with multitasking.  

If you will allow it, I would like to look for a position within the Group.  I hope you would understand.

Regards,
Ilonggo sa Desyerto

I did report to work the following day since I applied for a leave to process some personal documents with the Philippine Embassy in Riyadh.  I took an early morning train to Riyadh the following day.  At 9:01 A.M. my boss called saying that he doesn’t want to lose me and that he’ll talk to me on Saturday.  I reported to work on Saturday but he never talked to me.  On Sunday, he left for Lebanon without talking to me.

It’s not that I’m exaggerating what I’m currently feeling.  I recognized that I’m very stressed due to workload.  There was a point where I really enjoyed what I’m doing but recently, what I’m doing becomes a drag.  I don’t enjoy it anymore. 

Strangely, all the reservations and stress that I had were all gone when the boss left for Lebanon.  It could be that he’s causing this stress.  That’s why I don’t look forward of his return.  There’s a big chance that I’ll be stressed once again.